Musings from the Ozone

Here I sit in a dark living room with my laptop.  It is 6:30 in the morning, the 21st day of October and  It is still very dark outside.   The time change  hasn't taken place yet, so we stumble around in the dark, realizing that our body clock shouldn't have  awakened  us at 6 AM, especially when we planned to just sleep in today.  Nothing was pressuring us to get up  so early.  Why is it,  that on days when we have to get up early, it is tough to wake up.  Such is the incongruity of early mornings.    It is dark.  Yes, I just wrote that, but the continued darkness bothers me.  If feels like when I am alone with my  thoughts, the darkness makes  thoughts as gloomy as the darkness itself.  Ten minutes have passed; where is the  sunrise on this new day? 

Generally, my first thoughts in the morning are of God.  I feel He is on the throne.   He becomes my light in the morning.  I have faith.  I have faith that all the problems of the day will shrink in His sight.  What is that old adage that says; "In five years from now, what  your major problem is today will be laughable then?"  I believe it.  God will give us the direction and the motivation to get through problems of the day.    While I am sitting here, thinking my many unconnected thoughts, I start to pray.  God hears me. 

He talks to me; he tells me today that I am my biggest problem.  Thank you God, because you can tell me things that even my husband couldn't tell me!  Anyone else telling me that would probably cause me to get all riled up!  Yes, God, I need to work some more on myself.  I need to quit being impulsive.  Just because I see something I like, such as a new dress or a new pair of shoes, doesn't mean that I should try to buy the things.  You taught me a lesson a while back.  It wasn't through an experience or anything;  you somehow brought to light the fact that it is actually fun to watch someone else get something new?  I can feel happy for them, realizing that another milestone in maturity has been crossed, when I am able to rejoice for another person who has been blessed.  

Remember Lord, when you showed me that material things do not bring happiness?  When we walked out of a first house, and gave all our furniture to someone else, you not only replaced it all and gave me much more, but you also took out my anxiety over possessions.  You reminded me that all my possessions will be given to another when I pass out of this life.  I know now, that it is fruitless and futile to cling to earthly possessions as our salvation.  The newness wears off of things, and there may come a day when we actually resent having to worry about all the upkeep! 

 When I have to part with something because it no longer fits, or suits,  I can see that item on another person and enjoy it just as much as if I was wearing it.  When I visit our children's homes, I see many of my discarded items still in good use, and appreciated.  That makes me feel great!   Is that maturity?  Why didn't I part with things sooner, rather than see them hang around in the closet or garage?  Some items  can go completely out of style?  It is best to just pass things on to others in need. 

Ah!  The first light of the morning is approaching.  Not bright light, but a soft awakening light.  I must watch the sunrise this morning!  Something about the sunrise reminds me that God turns on the light in more ways than just brightening our day.  When the light is bright, we can see many details of the room that was totally obscured in the darkness.  When God illuminates a thought or an idea, it can become a near revelation!  When we read the Word of God, we are reminded again and again that we must look at things through the light of His word.  Suddenly we are not stumbling around in the darkness, like one does in the dark of the night, but we understand more clearly our role in this life. 

Sunrise at 7 AM?  Birds chirping and I am much more awake; we do need the light to make us come awake and alert.  Thank God for the sunrise and thank God for two good eyes to see it.  Thank God for his word and two good spiritual eyes to comprehend spiritual light.  Good morning world!